bamboo123

EDIT: ZOMFG it's so long!! D: Sorry T^T

Okay.. I broke up with my first love on January this year O.o we started dating on May last year...

During that period, he broke up with me 3 times and being the sympathetic me, I agreed to get back together.. even after he hurt me with his inconsiderate words... because he sounded so sad after those breakups... I TOTALLY REGRET IT NOW!!

He even told me that I'm just an average girl... ALL of his other female friends are either prettier, smarter, better, skinnier or pro-er than me in everything I do... So my confidence level (( which was never high )), became lower and lower and lower... sigh T^T And that he likes me for me and that I'll never find someone else like him... Now that I think of it, THANK GOD if I never meet someone like him... bloody backstabber...

He has a bad temper... And he likes telling lies... Like the one about his motobike... He told me he earned the money and bought the bike, at that time, i was like "ookay ._. that's good " because I was never a fan of bikes... and will never ever ride one plus the fact that I've never seen that bike before O.o Then after a few months, he was complaining to me about a thief stealing his bike... I told him to cheer up and that he can always earn more money and get a new one, i told him to chill and cool down Then he told me the bike was given to him by his dead best friend... I was like "I though u bought it yourself???... ._." Then he told me he didn't want to give the impression that he accepts gifts like bikes from other people... (( I think this was the first lie he told me O.o I kept quiet and didn't ask anymore, he wouldn't like it if i did >< ))

Many things happened here... I don't even wanna remember it...

On the third broke up, he threw away both his phones in a mall... I was so worried about him... because he'll always be my best friend... So I decided to get back together with him, even though it was him who wanted the break up in the first place and the reason was because I was hanging out with my other two guy best friends and 1 girl best friend... He told me I was cheap to be hanging out with other guys when I already have a boyfriend... To be honest, I was shocked, because I don't see why I must loose my best friends for a boyfriend... (( /immature attack ?? )) So we got back together...

After we broke up the 4th time and I finally refused to get back together... He told me that he's sorry if he never talks to me again... Then the next few days, he looks so sad D: so I told him we can always be back best friends

Right after that, my new friends started boycotting me and my ex was getting real close to them... I feel so sad that time... I even called my ex and we chatted... I didn't understand why I was being boycotted, and it never even crossed my mind that my ex might had betrayed me... I was never included in their talkbox chats anymore...

So there was one talkbox chatting session, my ex made that one... I asked if I can join? He told me "NO", I asked him "why?" He told me his "new friends don't want me in because they're studying for exams and I might talk about other things..." I asked my ex whether he ever saw me talking about off-topic stuffs when we're studying, he told me "no, but the others think u might.. If you wanna join, you must ask them, but I doubt they're let you in" I asked him if he even told them I wouldn't be off-topic, then he didnt reply me (( keep in mind that he was my best friend at that time, At lease I treated him as my best friend... )) So I was crying the whole night, then I asked one of the girls in the group on why can't I join, she told me my ex made the group and i need to ask him... it was really weird... but I was already sad and tired so I just went to bed that night... The next day, that girl told me they're letting me in and I was so happy Then I found out that it was my ex who told them not to let me in... But I pushed it out of my mind, as it was term exams...

So I still treated him as my best friend... and things got weirder and weirder as I hanged out with those new friends... One of them asked me if me and my ex ever kissed on the mouth, I said "yeah, but that was the serious case... Normally we only hug and hold hands..." That guy was like "Really? O.o" then he changed the topic... I began suspecting what my ex told him O.o

Then the other two new friends (( both females )), one of them was being left behind because she didnt wanna study, so being the sympathetic me again, I befriended her... after that, I also befriended the other girl and we became good friends

So recently (( last week... )), I heard from someone (( my best friends )), told me about the things my ex said about me and those were the reason I was being boycotted... they thought I was a slut! zomfg...

here's a list on what he said to them...:
- he told them I walk naked in my house... no pants or no shirt... everyday... ((I was like "._." then i was like "huh?" because my parents were really firm on everyone being dressed at home, because of the CCTV and because my dad is a guy... So I NEVER walk naked at home... But even if I did, who is he to control what I do at home? ))
- he told them I offered to show him my boobs... (( this one is weird... And I never did it... zomfg... I'm not that kind of girl.. ))
- he told them I would have given him my virginity if he asked me to... (( this one made me laugh because although I'm sympathetic, I was always firm with my YESes and NOs... and I made up my mind to keep my virginity until I get married... ))
- he told them I got my make up kit this year and when I tested it, I look so damn ugly!! (( It's true that I got my first make up kit this year, I told him that when we were skype voice calling, note: voice calling... I told him I can't use makeups... And that the eyeliner went weird because I couldn't stop blinking... And I'm 100000% sure he never saw me in makeup before... So why is he talking about it like he's seen it? )), but the point is, if he told them about normal chats like this that we had, what else had he told them???
- He told my best friend that he came to my house and slept overnight a few times, note: a few times, when my dad wasn't at home... -Because my dad is really strict and doesn't even allow me to go to the mall with my friends XD- And him saying that to my friends is like making it look like we did things and making me look cheap... Good thing my best friend didn't believe I would do such a thing... BUT, it was already a lie at the start... As he NEVER came over to my house for overnights... My mom don't allow it too...But the lie he told my friends is that my mom allowed him... Even my best female friends never come for overnights before, is there even a chance that he, a GUY, will be allowed to!? (( PLUS THE FACT THAT HE ONLY CAME TO MY HOUSE ONCE, it was when I invited him and my two primary school best friends over to play monopoly and swim... they all went back at 10pm... No overnights... ))
- He told them I like letting guys touch me, which is the reason I like hanging out with my other two guy best friends... (( this made me mad... I choose who I want to be friends with and who I hang out with... zomfg... ))

and other things that I can't remember now...

Fking backstabber... I hate him SO MUCH!!!!! !@#$%%^&* To think that I even wanted to maintain our friendship after the 4th (last) breakup...

And the best part is, he started telling these things LAST YEAR... WAYYYY BEFORE we broke up... i was like "WTF!?"

He told them LIES... And made me lose my friends... I'm so damn pissed offffff... but I know I wouldn't be this mad at him if what he told them is true... I'll be ashamed if those are true.... But now ANGRY LIKE CRAZY because what he said are L.I.E.S.....!!!!! !@#$%^

So I found out about those lies on 7th this month... and I've been ignoring him for a week now... (( plus I was wearing contacts on friday, he was giving me a smile and I glared at him and walked away ))

So he texted me yesterday morning, asking me that what had he ever done to me? Why am I being so cold to him?
I told him to "think" as i didn't wanna tell him or waste my energy talking to him...
He told me he'd thought about it and that he didn't do anything bad to me...And that if I want to be a b!tch, go b!tch quietly on my own and not glare at him...
I told him that I can use my eyes however I want to,who is he to tell me how to use my eyes?
His reply was "Guai Lan o0o!"
Then I told him I wanna Guai Lan and that it's none of his business...
He told me that it's the first time he sees someone like me, knowing things and not telling and throwing a tantrum...
I told him "it's also the first time I've seen someone like you... betrayer~" (( plus I never threw a tantrum I chose to ignore him, not scream/yell at him It's not considered a tantrum Just giving him the Cold Shoulder bahaha ))


After that, my friend asked me what happen to The Ex? He sounded so angry... She told me that my ex told her that he is angry and that he's gonna scold someone on Monday... And that he suspect one of the three friends told me bad stuffs about him...
Right at that moment, the thing I thought of was "How does he even know or can even guess who leaked out the lies/rumours he said about me? because I never said any names and I never told him that I know he told lies about me If he didn't do it, he would be totally confused, like how I was when everyone started boycotting me "

So conclusion: HE IS GUILTY!

But it'll be amusing if he decided to scold someone I think maybe he'll be scolding me because I'm the only one in our group of friends that isn't fierce and always gives way (( the others will scold him back immediately n my ex WILL lose if he starts an argument with anyone of them )) Well, if it's really me, he's in for a surprise

But I'm still pissed off