My art- skills or dumb luck?
by, 06-24-2012 at 09:46 PM (894 Views)
I'm not going to say who, or where, this conversation happened. All I know is that in my head, there's now a tiny voice that's talking, and its not a nice one. Someone said that my art is pointless and stupid, that it wasn't realistic enough. Or it wasn't very stylish. Obviously this puts doubts in my head about my art. And of course dealing with depression (I get bi-weekly counseling sessions), this situation doesn't exactly help.
let me just say that this person I'm no longer talking to. It's rather stupid for me to even think about this at all. So now I'm even wondering if my site will bring in the members. I know my style isn't like anyone else's, or part of the 'cookie cutter' art that I do see quite frequently. But, here are the facts about my art and how I got started.
At 17 years old, I picked up a pencil and a piece of computer paper and sketched my first sketch. It was an odd looking dragon, the proportion wasn't right, but dang it, I was proud of myself! I have never received any lessons of art. When I got a laptop and Paint Shop Pro 7 about the time my son was born almost 12 years ago, I started doing pixel art on the Packard Bell computer that my Dad had bought. He didn't mind I had it on there. Just as long as I was being productive. So I kept going pixeling, and sketching on paper. Finally, my Dad went and got a scanner so I can scan my art into the computer. It's a shame I don't have anything from that era of my life to compare to. Eventually I got my first tablet, I bought from someone I played Wajas with, a Wacom Sapphire. And I kept going, looking up tutorials online, asking for help when I need it from artists out there who had training, and trying to improve my skills without attending classes, because I had no money for classes. So 14 years later I continue to sketch, whether or not anyone out there thinks its good or not. And I continue to sketch and scan and digitize my art.
So yeah, I'm now wondering if it is dumb luck or with all the practice, that I actually have gotten better?.... I never really sold my artwork, although I have donated artwork for causes to help raise money for one thing or another. So really I can't put a price on my work. I guess with skeptics out there I will always doubt myself.
This doesn't mean that I'm going to stop working on my site Fabelz. It just means that I maybe need to try harder to get things done like I should be. And instead of goofing around on most nights, just steer ahead and seriously start working diligently on my artwork at least a couple of hours a night.
One of my early digital sketches, just threw it out there, I was bored that night, I don't even know what it is!:
Cthulhu!!!! (WIP done a while back.)
From VG Cats Cletus Brand Chocobo comic:
It's the end result of the chocobo that ran into the tree. He's waiting for the tree to move!
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