Cpvr's blog

All my life, I taught myself, no obstacle can destroy you Carlos, none can break you. But, I've had a few situations that I thought would break that barrier of "Strength" if that's the right word for this. I've noticed that it it was a relationship problem going on, its an obstacle and I try my best to defeat it, and make things better.

One thing that I don't get though is those strong ass forces that pull you to do wrong. I totally understand it because some thoughts/forces sometimes make us do things that we don't want to do. Such as, someone talking shit? Box me and I promise you won't win. Where did this strength come from? I'm not a preacher, but I do believe in God. And I totally believe that sometimes he throws obstacles at us, to test us, to see where we're going to go.

So, really, one obstacle I'm facing now, is the fact that my weight doesn't want to drop as fast as I'd like it to, so my point of this is to do more exercising, and stop screwing around. Get serious again, and prove to the world that obstacles won't broke you, only if you allow it to do so.

My weight goal of 100 pounds is still my main goal and obstacle, and who's going to stop me from reaching this goal? Nobody, only the forces that tell me to eat fatty foods, drink the wrong drinks, and not staying focus.

My clear objection, and goal is set, from my weight to drop even more, I need to up the endurance on the machine that I use, and also start increasing the amount of time I put in for cardio. It's nothin to me because music is my main motivation when I'm in the gym, and also, being surrounded by people just like me.

But, I wanted to clear my mind I bit with this blog post. As, I received word earlier that my girlfriend's car[and mine], the AC will cost a wooping $1k to get fixed. Wow, scratch that idea. I'm not paying that, nor will we. I'd prefer to find a cheaper car, and sell the old one. At least, that's an obstacle we've been facing all summer - no AC. It's a material thing, so why should I be mad about it?

Because, its sort of my main fault why the car is fucked up so to say. I crashed it a few months and busted up a few things. No biggie, right? We got those repairs fixed, and then a month later, poof... AC is dead in the water. It's just an obstacle though, we'll get pass it though. Soon enough.

So, really, when obstacles are trying to break you down in all kinds of ways, stay strong, and keep pushing, because eventually things will get better. I know for one, I stand tall, I keep it pushing like I'm a trainer teaching people how to do the proper things to lose weight. It doesn't really worry me that we may have to fork up a lot of money to get a new or used car, its the fact, it shouldn't have happened that way. But, life doesn't usually go the way we want it to.

Basically, I have to remain strong no matter what, as a community leader, as a father, and a friend to a lot of people. I know my last blog post was pretty hectic, but in the end, the truth will come out, and eventually everything will be over with.

I pray for my daughter though that's she okay emotionally throughout this whole ordeal.