Kinopiron... started in 2009/2010 ish. I abandoned it in my senior year of highschool. I was suffering a high risk pregnancy and could barely do much of anything... and socializing with my staff members felt like a chore. But fast forward 10+ years, my oldest son (the reason I abandoned, lol) was overwhelmed and overstimulated with neopets. Said it was too much going on.. he didn't understand some functions - so many shops and hidden links. He liked the concept but was struggling. A main reason why Kinopiron didn't go anywhere despite us having it fully planned out was we couldn't find anyone to help code it and bring it to life so I put myself through classes, ordered books, researched and all in 2022. I finally felt confident this year to try it out and realizing that some of it is a "learn as you go" type of thing and not as intimidating as I thought it would be.
On top of that, I always fancied writing and found a box of notebooks in my belongings in storage.... decided that 2025 was a year to finish things I couldn't bear to finish and published my first book in april 2025 following 2 more in 2025 for the series, leaving one book left... that is drafted out and halfway done with draft one... while my adhd had me wandering around once again writing things that didn't pertain to the existing series and 3 books sitting on atticus that are waiting for me to proof read and edit.
I suffer big time with "quitter syndrome" - even tried quitting my job twice this week and my boss refusing to accept my resignation and ignoring the fact I was late for work because my coffee pot broke this morning... and I work from home so it just made the situation 10xs worse lol (I eventually clocked out and did a good 2 hour cry session before deciding to work on Kinopiron and be somewhat productive today).
I did epoxy. Spent 3k on supplies. Decided I didn't want to add more things that can't "decompose" and "destroy the planet" ... I also tried to get into "freshies" - car scents... I couldn't figure out how to not burn them which I should have known would have been an issue with me because I can't even bake a cake.
I stay consistent with gaming but struggle with the streaming part because I am socially awkward and do not know how to talk to an audience while playing COD...
I was (still am?) Tiktok famous and was a popular influencer that disappeared on 250k followers because of surgeries and returned to a randomly banned account and now only have like 27k? followers... but more or less now only use tiktok for the filters, doom scrolling, and just purely to entertain myself.
I also draw... a lot ... I draw on every wall in my house that I can...
I lost my digital pad but hope to get back into digital work soon again.
anyways;; I have a problem...
